Someone say this to me,

No matter what happen to your past relationship, always remember that person once make you laugh, make you smile, give you memories and all the happiness that he can get for you. 

I can love someone so much that i could die for him. When i love, i love hard. Because love is real to me. Love can also give you heartbreak. Very deep break my friend. Don't underestimate the power of love because love is the main reason strong people stays strong and inevitable. To be honest, i live believing that true love will come to me one day in any ways. In any form. For the first time in my life, i believe that love is worth to die for when im meeting this one guy. Just an ordinary guy with flaws and so of full shits experience. I don't seek for perfection because me myself is not that perfect either. He said that i am the reason that he believe in love again. He was broken apart, tore into pieces, yes still standing strong and making people see that he is not the type of guy that once been broken can make an epic comeback.  I was broken to, i've been hurt and cheated by the person that i loved. Nothing good has ever happened to me all this years. Allah test me in every kind of ways that i got backlash by so many people. I've been hated with my own family. I lost everyone's trust. Im the fallen one yknow. Yet i'm still living until now gasping for something good to come until 'you' come into my life.

For once i believe that miracle do exist in this world. 'You' are my miracle. I never stood up for myself in the history of my existance, never but listen to others. From all the things that i could get in this world, but i couldn't get you. I can't love you eventhough i love you effortly. I can't have you. I can't live with you. Im fighting for my heart for the first time ever. It all just went south and i get so many objections from my pillars. How hurt can it be? Only god knows.